Why does writing have to be so hard?
I basically got nothing done in March. I don’t think I blogged at all, I barely read, and writing? WHAT IS THAT?
Okay, okay. Fine. It wasn’t a complete loss when it came to writing. I did loosely plot the type of book I have dreamed of writing for a long time, but never thought I would be able to. Honestly, I still have no idea if I can write that book but I want to try. It’s actually the same book that is competing with Kevin right now.
I’m really excited about it and I’ve been thinking about this project a lot (we’ll call it Project Dream for now). This book, I don’t know if I’ll be able to write it in large chunks. I think this book will have to be written in pieces. But I’m just guessing.
It’s not enough that I have these two projects competing with each other though. No. It’s not.
Traitors & Tyrants is the nightmare that will never end.
I love and hate Traitors & Tyrants right now. I have spent so much time on this book that just abandoning it for a different project is… unthinkable. I can’t do it. I don’t feel like I can at least. But at the same time, I have no idea what I’m doing with it anymore. I want to fix it, but I don’t how or what to do. I know part two is a complete mess.
And part of me, has honestly out grown the story that it currently is. I’m not interested in writing the story the same way I once was. So it’s like I’m stuck in this box of what I know in my head I’ve always wanted it to look like, but I look around this box and think, “this isn’t right. ”
I keep going back and forth with what to do with it. Am I abandoning it for now? Am I not?
It’s so hard to choose.
But don’t worry, there’s another project in the mix.
And this project… it has dragons and I did so much world building for it. I’ve written almost 10K in it. And guess where it is… it’s on my surface pro, that died. Everything. All of the world building. And the writing. Because I didn’t expect my computer to just die without warning, when it was working perfectly fine.
It’s so frustrating because honestly, I just want to write this book. I want to write the book with dragons. But the world building and the almost 10K I’ve already written, I can’t access right now.
My Favorite Line from Kevin So Far
345,600 seconds. 5760 minutes. 96 hours. 4 days. 42 pranks. A day.
Carl is still here.
So What Have I Done Lately?
- I’ve loosely plotted Project Dream.
- I finally figured out how to link the Kevin story together. Up until today (the time of writing this post), I was thinking of each chapter of Kevin like it’s own individual episode. I’ve finally found the thread that connects it all together.
- I have written wOrDs in Kevin.
Just has a reminder, I am participating in Camp NaNoWriMo and you can find me right here, and you can follow my progress throughout the month.